Not my will, but Yours be done.

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When I started high school, I was so sure I wanted to be a journalist. Then one day, the wind blew that desire from my heart. A couple of years ago, I was so sure I wanted to be with "this guy". Today, that idea is a joke. So many times I've prayed for the things I wanted, only to realize, days or months or years later, I didn't/don't want that.

Today, I want what He wants. Only what He wants. I will not be a Balam, a man of God, who casually ignores the voice of God, so much so that his donkey had to speak for him to realize what God wanted. Remember when Jesus called Peter satan? Jesus rebuked Peter in Matthew 16, (i think it was Mt. 16) and said Peter you're interests are not God's interest. Oh God, rebuke me if my interests are selfish. I desire what you desire for me! I don't want to be dumb as a donkey or evil canevil satan who deviates from the planning of God's purposes.

I want so many things today. I want my dream job with my dream house and my prince charming riding on a white horse. I want the people I love to be free from their troubles. Oh and I would like to be released from some too. But the question is, would I surrender it ALL to God's perfect plan in my life, even if it meant trials on the horizon. The answer hesitates in my heart. As was the prayer Jesus prayed on His knees, the realization of pair and agony fresh upon His heart, He cried out. Father, could you take this cup, this trial, from me life. Yet, not my will but Yours be done. (Luke 22: 41-42 ) Here, Jesus, in my life too, let it be just that. Not my will, but Yours be done.

It gets easier to say, God You're will be done in me, when the realization is made that when God performs His will in our lives, He does so for His glory. And nothing is more spectacular that God's glory. I can't say I've seen it, but I've heard so much about His glory. Moses had to literally cover His face because the Glory of God shone on his face so bright! And beyond my superficial desires, I do so strongly desire to see the glory of God.

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  1. AshleyAugust 10, 2009 at 10:04 PM

    This really brought tears.
    I just decided to visit your blog randomly & what you said really hit me.
    God Bless, you really have a gift :)

    Ashley

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