Psalms 139:16

God is proving time and time again to me that there is nothing impossible with God. In fact, us defining God's work in the dimensions of limitations is us containing our faith in a box called doubt. How GREAT is a God who is in the midst of the Fridays in our lives, when our strength is gone and we find ourselves hiding our identity. God is there when our life looks hopeless, our Savior looks paralyzed to save us on a cross. God is there in the middle of our Saturdays when the questions persist , the revelation from God seems so thin, and it finally feels like He left us. And most assuredly , God is there on the Sundays of our lives. When He proves to us that there is a joy in our sadness . God is there to roll the stone and reveal Himself victorious and glorious. God is there. In every season. In every calling. In every emotion. In everything. He is there and He is victorious.

So what am I doing up so late when its the weekend and I am not in school anymore? Well, I was making my Sunday school exam and my skit for a Sunday school program for my wonderful kids! Why am I doing it now? Well I procrastinated until the LAST minute... aka put my laziness into full mode and waited until 12:00am to get started with these two projects. And so here I am. ...Though I am hoping that I will have the privilege of studying weekend and weekdays all day once I get accepted to med school. But that is another topic for another day. Good night, Sheba

(1) It is good to give thanks to the Lord, And to sing praises to Your name, O Most High; (2) To declare Your lovingkindness in the morning, And Your faithfulness every night. In every season of our lives, its good not to get what you and I want or.. to be happy every day of our lives. But it is good to give praise to God in the ups and downs of life. Its good to sing His praise and dance in His presence. I'm not a Bible scholar but my thinking is that the more we praise, the more we see God for the Most High King He is, and less of the situation we are going through as a barrier. Verse 2- It is good to declare God's love in those days when the world is as it should be. On days when we feel His abundant love for us, we need to declare it. But on the midnights of our lives, when hope seems so slim, we need to bring the Most High praise too. On night as those, we need to remember what He has done and where He has taken us from. Glance back and look at His faithfulness. And Prai...

Reminiscing of who I used to be. And what God has called me from. What God has called me TO. And that is a lot to ponder about.

(3)Endure hardship with us like a good soldier of Christ Jesus. (4) No soldier in active service entangles himself in the affairs of everyday life, so that he may please the one who enlisted him as a soldier. Faith is a battle. Life is a battle. You seriously cannot just sit there and tell me the thoughts that are racing through your mind, the temptations you face every day, are just thoughts or just temptations. They aren't just that. They are ideologies and principles satan lays down as he tries to invade our lives with ungodliness. The TV for example, it sits so innocently, but behind the plot of a simple story line, lies false doctrine and ill ideologies, that if we aren't aware will get the best of us. How many times have I seen inappropriate relationships, those outside the covenant of marriage, blasted through that TV screen today? Too many to count, and I watched TV for about an hour and half. And that was only one of the many principles that this world tries to feed ...

Throughout the Bible, there are these great things that is ascribed to David. For example, we know that he was this great warrior. Killed 200 Philistines for a bridal present for his bride. A good king. Handsome. A humble shepherd. He played the harp, among an array of various instruments. David sang, was a great worship leader, wrote many Psalms that constitute a large sum of our contemporary praise and worship music. In addition to the great things David did, the Bible says that David followed God's own heart . In 1 Samuel 16:7, it says that God doesn't look at the outside appearance, God looks at the heart. And God looked from above at that teenage heart, and God was pleased. So pleased, that God gave David an anointing and the promise of the crown and the glory of Israel. These last weeks I've been trying to discover how exactly he pursued God's heart. And something that so common with David is that David always sought after what God wanted. So many times, David wo...

I start work Monday morning. This is a job I thought I wouldn't get. I got it. And I don't even know for certain this is where God wants me. In 1 Samuel 9, God whispered to Samuel in his ear of the things to come. That's what I need now. To hear a whisper of God. Its so easy to question and murmur. Its hard, sometimes even painful, to have faith.

During the time of the Judges there happened to be a civil war within Israel. A civil war brought on by the injustice and the wickedness of the tribe of Benjamin. (Judges 19-20) So all of Israel went against the tribe of Benjamin. With the Israelites of one side, the Benjamites on the other, Israel sought the Lord. God said 'GO', they went with such fervor. Such passion. Such motivation. Such determination to do the Lord's work. And the first day of battle comes, they fail. All walk home with their heads hung low, disappointed, after all they were doing what God desired them to do. That first night, they encourage themselves, seek God, who says 'GO' so they muster up a little more strength, a little more passion as they get ready for the second day. Second day, they stand at their post, the sounds of war approaches, and once again they are met with defeat. Oh, the shame. Oh the sound of such bitter failure, for after all, it was God who said 'Go'. (20:26-28)...

Gal 2:18- For if I build again those things which I destroyed, I make myself a transgressor. Paul said that he does what he doesn't want to do and doesn't do what he knows he should do. I find myself there too. More often than not. Those things that I am convicted in my heart as wrong, dead wrong, I find myself doing. In realizing it, I don't even stop. What does that make me other than guilty, sad, and sorry. It makes me a transgressor. A sinner. Those sins that I once tore down with the declaration that I would never walk that line again, I build those very sins up if I keep on doing it, after the fact. It doesn't end there however, because (20) "I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me" Everyday, every moment, every second in a life drenched in sin, I MUST remember that I am DEAD to this life as I...

Deuteronomy 7:21-23 "You shall not be terrified of them; for the Lord your God, the great and awesome God, is among you. And the Lord your God will drive out those nations before you little by little...But the Lord your God will deliver them over to you, and will inflict defeat upon them until they are destroyed" God will drive those troubles from our lives cause vs 21 says He is your God. That claim that He is ours comes from God directly, He is your God. The great and awesome things God did and does can be obtained in our lives because of the fact that He is ours. He is OUR God. When trouble rushes into our lives and stubborn situations seem like they cannot change; answers are not found and solutions are far from reach, the great and awesome God is our God. The God who healed the blind and the lame, He is our God. The One who gave wisdom to a naive Solomon, He is our God. The One who turned made the sea a road for the Israelites, He is our God! He is our God, who heals ...

When I started high school, I was so sure I wanted to be a journalist. Then one day, the wind blew that desire from my heart. A couple of years ago, I was so sure I wanted to be with "this guy". Today, that idea is a joke. So many times I've prayed for the things I wanted, only to realize, days or months or years later, I didn't/don't want that. Today, I want what He wants. Only what He wants. I will not be a Balam , a man of God, who casually ignores the voice of God, so much so that his donkey had to speak for him to realize what God wanted. Remember when Jesus called Peter satan ? Jesus rebuked Peter in Matthew 16, (i think it was Mt. 16) and said Peter you're interests are not God's interest. Oh God, rebuke me if my interests are selfish. I desire what you desire for me! I don't want to be dumb as a donkey or evil canevil satan who deviates from the planning of God's purposes. I want so many things today. I want my dream job with my dream hou...

"...I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I— I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference." -Robert Frost, The Road Not Taken A sigh of relief perhaps. To have traveled, not like all the rest, but to be scared and look past all the fear, and strive into the unknown path that only God himself has written for us. Ps. 23 says "Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, for You are with me. Your rod and Your staff comfort me."Even in all the pain of life in the valley, God is with me. As shepherd in the storm, God does not leave His sheep. And He will not leave me. Nor you. And years and years will pass, and looking back we'll sigh. A sigh of relief. We did not travel the path that the world has taken. We have traveled the path of the few, and that, THAT has made the difference. The travel has made the difference in our character. our faith. our hope. our successes....

I spent this past week as a worry wart, stressing about my research project and a poster that was due Friday. So, Monday and Tuesday come. I ran my slot blot for 2 sets, then waited for my results. And we decided to get the numbers for that set of data and make a poster with the preliminary data. The greater part of Tuesday was spent cramming for two exams. Wednesday I had two exams: Physics and Physiology. All went well by the grace of God and nothing else. Return to Wednesday night and I'm in the lab, getting numbers. Thursday I made my graph and showed my mentor. Mentor's response, such and such looks totally crazy. a plausible "artifact". artifact? error perhaps. artifact? I'm not even that smart. And let alone that deceptive. I can't even keep a straight face when I play poker! Nevertheless, he told me to run with another pair of cell line data. So Thursday morning before Calculus, I crunched the numbers and made a graph, worked on the poster, and ra...

In the lab. Working away. Working my whole life away under the pressures of discovering the next biggest life changing dynamic cure for the blemishes we perceive under our skin. Could it be those blemish are the very ones that gives us our sanity. Perfection, after all, is such a hard thing to keep up with. Provides us protection against the overinflated human ego. Ms. Invincible, you, my sweet dear, are a human. Plain and simple. Plain and simple, blemished, stained, mistaken dear. And the great irony is that the more we realize our stained life of problems and mistakes, we inevitably discover that life isn't about perfection, its about all the mistakes that make you dependent on His plans. Life is about discovery. But what humanity got all wrong is life is about discovering the Christ on the cross. SomeOne so perfect yet marred beyond perfection for our sin stains. Taking our place. Paying the price of Life. And with all the tears I have cried. The prayers I've whispered in t...