One of those days...

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Its one of those days, when the mirror stares blankly back at you, the feel to life is wrong, and time is not something you have. One of those days that I wish has a redo button. Maybe even a pause-lets-go-back-to-1-month-ago button, when I was sitting on my bum wishing my time away, surrounded by my family. Today, time is something that escapes me at every side and family is far.

I came home after a whole day of class. Exhasted. Lonely. And I gance up to a poster I have hanging on my wall. Its a "who am I" poster that lists all the titles that I have and am in Christ Jesus. My Favorite? "I am a child of God...doing all things through Christ who gives me strength.." Some days I don't know who I am. i don't know where I fit in. I don't know what I'm doing here. When I don't have a clear definition of who and what, I know that I am a child of God. When I don't know how the world percives me, I do know how God sees me- I am His child. and He loves me. I might not have the affections of the world, but I do have the love of Jesus. And that is more than enough of me.

Today I got a call from two of my aunts. Today, I needed to hear a sincere voice, and God brought that before my ears. So my urging today is that if you have someone on your mind, email them. Call them. Even if it is just a hi, a hi is enough to change the course of a day for an person who needs it the most. In fact, we could all use a hi.

Hi.
Sheba

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