Psalms 139:16

I start work Monday morning. This is a job I thought I wouldn't get. I got it. And I don't even know for certain this is where God wants me. In 1 Samuel 9, God whispered to Samuel in his ear of the things to come. That's what I need now. To hear a whisper of God. Its so easy to question and murmur. Its hard, sometimes even painful, to have faith.

During the time of the Judges there happened to be a civil war within Israel. A civil war brought on by the injustice and the wickedness of the tribe of Benjamin. (Judges 19-20) So all of Israel went against the tribe of Benjamin. With the Israelites of one side, the Benjamites on the other, Israel sought the Lord. God said 'GO', they went with such fervor. Such passion. Such motivation. Such determination to do the Lord's work. And the first day of battle comes, they fail. All walk home with their heads hung low, disappointed, after all they were doing what God desired them to do. That first night, they encourage themselves, seek God, who says 'GO' so they muster up a little more strength, a little more passion as they get ready for the second day. Second day, they stand at their post, the sounds of war approaches, and once again they are met with defeat. Oh, the shame. Oh the sound of such bitter failure, for after all, it was God who said 'Go'. (20:26-28)...